I feel like a free man, away from commitments and difficulties (of course, temporarily). It has been a long time since I felt that way. I just completed my third exam in two days, which was my Development of Brain and Behavior second test. Man, I have to be honest that I don't think I have been challenged that much in my life before.
The irony of that exam was under the implication that some questions were super specific and difficult to deal with, while some questions were super easy to a point that I had to dumb down my understanding to a more generic perspective. It was a real weird challenge, given by an interesting professor. All this while, I convinced myself that if I could manage to answer a really tricky question, I would be able to answer the easier ones. However, that exam proved me wrong completely.
I would like to draw a parallel between my exam situation with our day-to-day life. Up to this point, I think I have achieved a lot of things that some of my peers have not achieved. I am saying this, of course, with zero sentiment of bragging or pride. I am merely stating my gratitude for what God has given me so far. I have been pushing myself so hard to dream and to attain my dreams. I always believe that if we dare enough to dream, then there should not be anything to stop us from getting there. It is a matter of bravery and persistence. I never once want to stop doing what I am doing with my life; living in a foreign country, getting good grades, enjoying my freedom, and many more. But, sometimes I forget how hard I have to work to get here. It was not an easy journey and it will never be an easy one.
Today, I learned something far more important: appreciating my own body, my own happiness, my own health and well-being, and my psychological functioning. To get where I am at right now require sacrifice and heartache. I have to let go of some of my temporary happiness to go out with friends, watching a movie or two, and picking the option of completing my homework rather than working out.
I am pretty good at prioritizing my commitments. I know what should come first and what shall be left out - if necessary. Based on my own self-reflection, I realized that my future cannot really wait for me to take actions later, rather I have to do it now or say goodbye to my bright future. Of course, there is not a guarantee that I will have a wonderful and free-of-suffering kind of life, but I better be prepared. Anything under the sun is possible, with or without our consciousness.
Anyway, after I got done with one of the most difficult exams in my life, I came home and de-stress. Having this whole apartment by myself is a great time to just be lazy and away from responsibility. Temporary, obviously, but I think that would be enough for me. I am not a huge fan of sitting around and doing nothing either. I love keeping my schedule busy and being in the mode of ready-to-go. But tonight, it is my night. Tonight, I will stay home, be lazy, and silence my phone, for real.
I am a strong believer that in order for us to get what we want, we really need to work super hard, sometimes double what we are doing. Yes, nothing comes easy in this world, unless we are ready to kiss goodbye to all our goals. We all are working so hard in college or at work to achieve what we desire. No matter what our goals are, just don't forget that we are humans and our bodies need rest too. Now, pat your shoulders and say, "I'm proud of you [insert your name]." No matter how hard you plan to work for the rest of your life, don't forget to give yourself some credits, We all need that once in a while to maintain our sanity. Trust me, it works!
